ONE RED PILOT

I’m sitting here planning the set list for a service I’ve been leading for the past 6 yrs of my life. I’m not a very sentimental person but I’m really having a moment here. Why? Tomorrow night is the last time this service will be done. 6 years worth of Tuesday’s devoted to leading people to the Lord will become “remember when’s?” after tomorrow night. Thinking back over the past 6 yrs one thing stands out to me the most…the beginning.

I was a new worship leader and I had no clue what I was doing. Because of my green-ness I was so reliant on the Lord to get me through the service. Before rehearsals I would take prayer walks for an hour to “get ready” for the night. I would pray my guts out because I knew that if I didn’t…I couldn’t be all that God had me to be for that night. I’d love to tell you that this is still a practice of mine, but it’s not and that’s not cool.

Far to often I rely on my own strength, ability, and skill to get through my Sunday mornings. I wake up Sunday and throw down some prayers in-between sips of coffee on the ride to church…that’s weak. I’m going to get back to that place of desperate need of God to lead people to Him. Not half hearted shout outs asking Him to bless our efforts. I have to get back there, if I don’t, things could get really bad.

Thank you Jesus for this gut check,

nate